Wow it's been a while. What does that mean? Am I content with things the way they are? Well I must say I'm very very happy with my current relationship. However, my mind is just absolutely fucking swirling lately with so much stimulation, information, contemplation. I can't take it! I really love my girlfriend; I care about her a lot. But she's got someone else. So far the only thing that makes it any different or noticeable that I'm not the primary is that they live together. Otherwise, it just feels like a normal relationship.
So what's all this business swirling in my mind? Well, I want more these days. As mentioned in a previous entry, I'm not interested in being someone's on-call blow-job girl. I'm not into just fucking people for the sake of fucking them. I've grown tired of Skyping with guys who just want me to entertain them while they jerk off. Please! It gets old and I am fully aware that's all they want. So the problem is, weeding out these things seems to be taking longer than it should. Why am I still putting up with some of these jerks? Is my need for attention so massive that I'll still take whatever I can get, even if it's not fulfilling in any way?
Don't get me wrong, I've been slowly weeding out some guys. I've fired 3 guys with 9 inch cocks, hired one of them back, then fired him again (though he doesn't yet know that). Seriously, I would love a cool guy with a cock that big, but there was NO chemistry with the guys in question and I was tired of just fucking them with no kissing, no cuddling, no other activities besides blow jobs and fucking. Really? What kind of asshole thinks that's all a girl wants?
Straight guys, that's who. I'm sick of them. SICK! It's a rare thing to meet a straight guy who actually pays attention to what women like or need.
Which brings us to Warehouse Guy. Now, he doesn't really work in a warehouse, but we'll get to that later. He actually found me on a website I belong to that shall remain nameless, sent me a very lovely message, then we started texting right away. Instantly, we both noticed chemistry, even just from texting. There was some kind of vibe between us that made us wanna meet right away. Two days later, he came over. SO much cuter than his pic! Huge chemistry and we just got along right away. We just had some really fucking great sex. The following week he suggested I come to his place of work which we shall call the Warehouse, so one night I took a cab over there when he was working alone. Totally naughty and fun! I am texting him right now...
I've met some other guys who were complete duds. Not seeing them again. I'm not putting up with anything less than awesome. The thing is, sometimes you don't know they're not awesome till you meet them, then it's always disappointing that you wasted your time with someone like that. But it's just part of the deal, I guess.
Now let's talk about the long-distance guys. I'm getting tired of them too. All they wanna do is text me when their cocks are hard or have me send more pics or Skype or whatever. It's dumb and I'm sick of it. I guess it did something for me at some point, but not anymore. I am not into Skyping, especially guys in other countries in different time zones whom I'll never EVER meet!
So my girlfriend thinks I should try to find a woman and I kinda think she's right. I'm tired of asshole straight guys. I do love bi guys but it's really hard to find bi people of any kind who are actually single. I don't wanna be in another poly relationship in which I'm not the primary. I have one and that's enough. But honestly, I don't really know what I want or what I really have time for. The girlfriend I do have is really important to me and I don't want to take away from time spent with her. I'd love to spend even more time with her! So anyone new would have to be really special.
That's my deal. Deal with it.
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