Now we come to the part of the program where things get a little fuzzy. These next 4 men were part of the phase called "Well Since You're Here...". You must understand my mindset at the time. Some have called it manic (hello therapist!), some have just called it slutty, and some have called it just weird. I was engaging in behaviors that I don't actually recommend to anyone...all I know is that it served the purpose at the time. I really believe that these particular men led me to up my standards considerably and strive for more satisfying conquests.
But that's later...
First there was No Name. Yes, I had sex with someone whose name I never got. This was probably for a couple of reasons....first, he said he had a girlfriend, then his email was actually anonymous, finally I just never asked. 30 years old, white, bald head, tiny dick, finished right when he started.
Then later that night there was The Traveler. 28, 6'4", big guy. Bigger than I prefer. Odd night. I got a massage but he never took off his pants, then when he did, he just should've kept them on. Guys, if your entire dick is hairy, just fucking shave it! No one wants to see or touch that thing.
Married Guy. 35, kinky and naughty, likes to talk dirty. Alright looking but not really my type and besides, small dick. Are you seeing the pattern here?
This next one just pisses me off. For one thing that I even let him come over and secondly, that I even let him into my house. That pic he sent was at some kind of angle that made him better looking. No, it made him semi-attractive when in fact he was an ugly geeky troll with bad teeth. I did it anyway and he left. Ugh.
So I'm not getting into anymore detail about these people except to tell you their quirks and stats. This was a weird few days that I won't be revisiting anytime soon.
Monday, July 23, 2012
Sunday, July 22, 2012
The First Few
So after something snapped in my brain, which is the best way I can think of to put this, I started looking on craigslist while at the same time putting my profile up on a popular dating website. I was in no way looking for a relationship, a new boyfriend, or even anyone to stay over. I just wanted sex. Fun. Immediate gratification.
Little did I know how easy that would be to get. How did I not know this? Oh right, I was married. No fun there.
The dating website seemed dismal at first; I thought everyone was fake and just saying things they thought women wanted to hear. People had stupid profile names like "theguywhostays" or "flowers4u". Gag. Really, who buys that shit? Not me. So with that, I went to the place where everyone knows just what they want - craigslist.
It felt slutty and forbidden. Only skanks and sluts do this, right? Well I put aside all of those notions and decided that if I wanted something, I was gonna get it
One of the first people I met was Muscles. He was hot, 23, and Indian....totally hot. We made no bones about what we wanted and I invited him over. We pretended to meet in public, which just meant that we met outside on the corner of my building. Let's go!
He was exactly what I needed at the time - a good hard fuck. Yeah, I said it. I don't care. He wasn't the biggest guy I'd ever been with, if you know what I mean, but it felt goooood. We had fun. I saw him again and still might (ok I just texted him right now, if you must know).
The second guy I met was 32 years old and from the dating website. Let's call him Reluctant. He contacted me first and while I he wasn't really my exact type, I thought he was cute enough and pretty funny. We started texting quite often and our conversations ranged from cute to sexy to just plain annoying. He had a problem having sex just for sex; a typical relationship kinda guy. I've never dealt with anyone as frustrating as that guy. I've never met a guy who wouldn't jump at the chance to come over and play! It took a LOT of effort and when he finally came over, I have to say it wasn't really worth it! Not a lot of chemistry and I think he got weirded out by the fact that he met a woman online and she just invited him over
The funny thing was, when thinking with their dicks, guys aren't always all that smart about keeping things anonymous. Several of them emailed me with addresses containing their first and last names. Really? You KNOW I'm gonna google you!
Third guy - married, 32, only saw one pic which seemed ok. We emailed quite a bit and built up a ton of anticipation about what we were gonna do! Finally I invited him over and he wasn't nearly as cute as I thought he'd be and again, disappointing in the size department. Well, he was already here, so I let him in and we had TONS of chemistry. Fun stuff happened. Never saw him again.
That was my introduction to the world of online hookups. All it did was leave me wanting more, convinced I could meet even hotter guys who met my ever-increasing requirements.
Little did I know how easy that would be to get. How did I not know this? Oh right, I was married. No fun there.
The dating website seemed dismal at first; I thought everyone was fake and just saying things they thought women wanted to hear. People had stupid profile names like "theguywhostays" or "flowers4u". Gag. Really, who buys that shit? Not me. So with that, I went to the place where everyone knows just what they want - craigslist.
It felt slutty and forbidden. Only skanks and sluts do this, right? Well I put aside all of those notions and decided that if I wanted something, I was gonna get it
One of the first people I met was Muscles. He was hot, 23, and Indian....totally hot. We made no bones about what we wanted and I invited him over. We pretended to meet in public, which just meant that we met outside on the corner of my building. Let's go!
He was exactly what I needed at the time - a good hard fuck. Yeah, I said it. I don't care. He wasn't the biggest guy I'd ever been with, if you know what I mean, but it felt goooood. We had fun. I saw him again and still might (ok I just texted him right now, if you must know).
The second guy I met was 32 years old and from the dating website. Let's call him Reluctant. He contacted me first and while I he wasn't really my exact type, I thought he was cute enough and pretty funny. We started texting quite often and our conversations ranged from cute to sexy to just plain annoying. He had a problem having sex just for sex; a typical relationship kinda guy. I've never dealt with anyone as frustrating as that guy. I've never met a guy who wouldn't jump at the chance to come over and play! It took a LOT of effort and when he finally came over, I have to say it wasn't really worth it! Not a lot of chemistry and I think he got weirded out by the fact that he met a woman online and she just invited him over
The funny thing was, when thinking with their dicks, guys aren't always all that smart about keeping things anonymous. Several of them emailed me with addresses containing their first and last names. Really? You KNOW I'm gonna google you!
Third guy - married, 32, only saw one pic which seemed ok. We emailed quite a bit and built up a ton of anticipation about what we were gonna do! Finally I invited him over and he wasn't nearly as cute as I thought he'd be and again, disappointing in the size department. Well, he was already here, so I let him in and we had TONS of chemistry. Fun stuff happened. Never saw him again.
That was my introduction to the world of online hookups. All it did was leave me wanting more, convinced I could meet even hotter guys who met my ever-increasing requirements.
The Beginning
Why in the world would I voluntarily call myself slutty? Well because really there's no other name for what I've been doing lately. Call it my post-break-up phase, but one guy I was talking to told me I was having a slutty renaissance and that feels like exactly what's going on. I can't possibly keep this up forever, but it seems to be just what I need at this moment in time.
I'm not going to yammer on and on about my break-up except to say that I had one. It sucked. I'm realizing all the stuff I was missing like attention, compliments, and just people in general treating me like the hot-ass chick that I am!
Before I launch into my slutty descriptions, I first must say that this was unexpected even to me. I sincerely thought I'd never ever want to be with anyone else and the thought of some gross guy that I hardly even knew coming into the sanctity of my home seemed horrifying! I cannot pinpoint the exact moment when that thought process did a complete 180; I just know that it happened.
The next thing I knew I had a profile up on a dating website and a few days later I put an ad on craigslist. Hot BBW Seeks Younger Men! Please spare me the warnings about the Craigslist Killer; I've been given that lecture more times than I can remember.
I learned a few things from putting up that craigslist ad. I immediately got about 40 responses in my IN box and found that men are not shy about sending pics of their junk. I suddenly felt that an assistant was needed to filter through all of them, but I managed by myself. I learned that men jump at the chance for free sex with a willing participant! Well hell we all knew that already, right!?!? I learned that they want it RIGHT NOW and will not stop emailing you until they get a response. I also learned to be extremely specific about my requirements but more about that when we talk about my second ad.
I'm not entirely sure how this blog will be organized since I am writing after most of my slutty behavior has already occurred. Let's just say this all started somewhere around the early part of June 2012. I have slowed down considerably and will detail more of that later on.
Meanwhile, let the debauchery begin....
I'm not going to yammer on and on about my break-up except to say that I had one. It sucked. I'm realizing all the stuff I was missing like attention, compliments, and just people in general treating me like the hot-ass chick that I am!
Before I launch into my slutty descriptions, I first must say that this was unexpected even to me. I sincerely thought I'd never ever want to be with anyone else and the thought of some gross guy that I hardly even knew coming into the sanctity of my home seemed horrifying! I cannot pinpoint the exact moment when that thought process did a complete 180; I just know that it happened.
The next thing I knew I had a profile up on a dating website and a few days later I put an ad on craigslist. Hot BBW Seeks Younger Men! Please spare me the warnings about the Craigslist Killer; I've been given that lecture more times than I can remember.
I learned a few things from putting up that craigslist ad. I immediately got about 40 responses in my IN box and found that men are not shy about sending pics of their junk. I suddenly felt that an assistant was needed to filter through all of them, but I managed by myself. I learned that men jump at the chance for free sex with a willing participant! Well hell we all knew that already, right!?!? I learned that they want it RIGHT NOW and will not stop emailing you until they get a response. I also learned to be extremely specific about my requirements but more about that when we talk about my second ad.
I'm not entirely sure how this blog will be organized since I am writing after most of my slutty behavior has already occurred. Let's just say this all started somewhere around the early part of June 2012. I have slowed down considerably and will detail more of that later on.
Meanwhile, let the debauchery begin....
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