Now I know this isn't supposed to be my personal journal, more like documentation of my experiences, but tonight I just need to get something off my chest.
I can't tell a single one of my friends because they'll misunderstand. Hell I don't even understand what's going on.
All I know is that one of the guys I've met has infiltrated my brain and I cannot stop thinking about him. I'm not gonna say which one, though if you've read all my posts you could probably figure it out. I know I'm going to see him again but it's just a matter of when. Meanwhile he keeps texting about how much he wants me. I can't stand it! But I absolutely live for those texts!
I texted him today that I was thinking about him and we are texting right now. Do I want a relationship with this guy? Probably not. However, being with him was the best experience ever and I want to feel that way again...soon. Texting about it is absolute torture!
If I could see this guy every day I literally would not need or want anyone else. Am I going soft? Nope, I am just now realizing what I was missing all these years...how awesome it can be, and frankly it's got me a little emotional.
I am trying to articulate why it's so awesome with this guy and all I can come up with is that I've never felt any connection like this with anyone. Yes, it's just sex, but it's amazing. Nothing is fake or forced; it's just effortless
uninhibited, and completely fucking hot. Chemistry like this is rare right?
That's all have to say about that and now I'm gonna go answer his latest text.
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