Girl Moods

I find myself in a bit of a state today.  Last weekend was incredible and that feeling carried over into Monday.  So explain to me why I suddenly feel some kind of funk coming on?  I took a break Tuesday and Wednesday to have some me time and get some things done around the house, but tonight a guy was supposed to come over.

Well he totally no-showed.  No email, no contact.  Just no show.  I'm sure I'll get an email with some lame excuse at some point, but I'm not interested.  This is the first time we actually had plans, but he's been horrible at communicating all along and will send random emails saying "wanna fuck tonight?" and when I respond, he never emails back!  Apparently he didn't want to?

I have no time for this shit.  It does bad things to my self-esteem even though intellectually I know I'm fine.  The funny thing is, I wasn't even that much in the mood to have anyone over, but I've been wanting to meet him for a while so I figured once he got here, it'd be fun!

But why do my moods change so drastically when this happens?  I hate how a day of not getting very many texts or emails can send me into some kind of weird angsty state.  I'm not comfortable with that but don't know how to get out of it.

Even though I know that Mr. Bisexual is coming on Sunday as usual, I still feel like I want more.  Why can't I be happy with once a week with someone awesome?  I'm always searching.  Always.

Then I sent a text to Puerto Rico and he didn't respond.  That bugs me.  I mean it's text, I know you read it, just text me back and say hi.  I'm not Crazy Texting Girl and won't bother you if you're busy.  I'm not a kid and I don't play games.

Tonight I ended up hanging out with a friend of mine...drinks, dinner, good conversation.  I feel better I know I'll be ok.